January 29, 2010. 4:06pm
My first official blog. Myspace and Facebook blogs don't count in my book. You could say I was inspired by that movie Julia & Julia, however, this blog won't be about cooking. This blog will be about me and my thoughts and currently my journey to lose a whole person, 130 pounds.
I am 24 years old, 5'1, and weigh 250 lbs. Super obese by doctors definitions. I have always been a heavy child. Food was my comfort and my reward growing up. There's a saying "We first make our habits, then our habits make us". At this point that is very true in my life.
I am going away for 5 months in June to Fitness Ridge, which is affiliate with The Biggest Loser. I plan to lose about 50-70 lbs. That is great. But I will still have more. So I'm starting now. I've stopped drinking wine every night about 7 days ago. So far I feel like I have a little better handle on life. Although tonight is Friday and all I want to do is go home and have some wine and relax and watch tv, I am switching it up. I am going to go home, have half juice and half water, cook myself a great meal and watch tv.
Saturday I will be doing a clean and organization of my house with my Mom, I'm excited to get that stuff done. It is very true that I am at my best in a clutter free clean environment. It's damn hard to keep it that way though. I have a tendency to get overwhelmed mega easy, and thus feel lazy. It's a dreadful cycle.
Randomness for those facebook addicts:It's Doppelgänger week.. during this week please change your profile picture to someone famous you have been told you look like ... be sure to post this as your status.
Facebook is a funny thing. I was so intently ANTI Facebook for a good year, then I slowly started signing on and before I knew it I was having updates sent as texts to my phone! What the hell, tell me how that works so fast!!!
I finally saw an orthopedic today. He was a swell man. Dr Nelson from the Oasis Clinic. I had x-rays taken and there was nothing to spot being wrong. In a way that's a great thing, because it's noting big, but it's a bad thing because we still don't know what's wrong. Dr Nelson let me know back pain is frustrating for patients and Dr's alike because it's hard to pinpoint a problem. I was sent away with a 2 week RX of Neprocyn and 2x weekly Physical Therapy. I'm just damn happy to start somewhere. I am hopeful!
Speaking of hope, I feel so far away from God. I am slowly falling into the ways of the world. No drugs, and actually less drinking than ever, but I am spending no time with Him and haven't been to church for 2 months. I am anxious to get to church tomorrow with my Daddy. I need to get connected and plugged in again. Thank you God for forgiving me for procrastinating and being so stupid to waste all this time watching tv instead of reaching out for you. Please don't lose faith in me, and help me keep faith in myself!
I'm starving, it's an hr past time for a medifast shake. I'm looking forward to this one! I'm going to sign off for right now. Thanks for watching the Tawny Show.
Peace Out Home Skillet,
Miss TP
